Monday, December 31, 2012

Goodbye 2012

Its the last day of 2012. Feels like just a few weeks ago that I was ringing in the new year and here I am again at the cusp of another year. Its been a short year, theres no denying that. To sum it up, its been a year of survival. Surviving stage fright, my mother, the end of the world! I did my first ever amateur pole competition which was exciting and frightening at the same time. If you had told me last year that I would be on stage in my skivvies, pole dancing in front of 400 people on a competitive level, I would've laughed and replied I was more likely to grow a beard. Well, I am beardless and still pole dancing.

My mother has finally moved from our family home into a safer, more manageable apartment. We have talked about this for quite a while and when the move actually happened, it was done in two weeks! We spent our last Christmas together in our family home and it only hit me when I took a photo of the children together by the Christmas tree. I did feel a little sad but amazingly, there was also a sense of relief. It was like as if the chapter could finally end. There has been many, many amazing memories in the house but as with all old houses, these memories sometimes haunt with regret and sadness too. I feel like we can finally move on and brave the new year and new challenges ahead.

And of course, there was the rather uneventful end of the world. As my sister's contractor very wisely put it (in cantonese), "Do you think it would be that easy? When the police comes to catch you, do you think they let you know first?". In short, live your life and do what you want to do. Nobody knows what the future holds so they should never be able to tell you what and what not to do.

So heres what I hope for in the new year. Peace. Understanding. Love. Freedom. Agree to disagree and keep and open mind. Happy new year!